I am drowning in a sea of STRESS. Five days till deadlines and my parents are adding at least another 5 or 6 schools to the list. None of which I have filled out applications or written essays for!!
I know they are just looking out for me, and they want to increase my chances of getting into a school but it's literally crushing me. As in, I can't take it anymore. I have never felt such a sinking feeling every minute of everyday like I do now. The pressure of holding my whole future in my hands is such an overwhelming feeling, so overwhelming to the point that my physical state is changing. I can't sleep, I'm gaining wait, and I am constantly fatigued. All this stress is really starting to take a toll.
Today in my devotional, the main verse was Psalm 118:24 "This is the day that the LORD has made, we will rejoice and be glad in it." The reading also went on to say how precious are those who thank God even in the darkest of days.
HA. HOW in the world am I supposed to thank God in a time like this? I feel as though I am completely sinking and no one is going to pull me up. It's like someone literally ripped the steering wheel right out of my hand.
I know this is just God's way of reminding me that HE is the one in control, but how am I to thank him with a joyful heart when I feel as though there is nothing to be thankful for right now. Obviously, that's not at all true, but that's just how it feels.
till i'm in,
lindsey.
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