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I have never been happier to be where I am now.

I honestly don't know what decision I made to get where I am today. I have never been so happy so… content to be where I am. And I feel like it can only get better, like nothing could get me down. I don't know how I got here.

…But at the same time I do. At the beginning of this whole college process I figured out I couldn't do it alone. Auditions, applications, essays, deadlines, plane tickets, flight times… it all became so overwhelming. I cried at night praying it would end soon. I became depressed from the pressure and stress. After that I realized I just had to give it all to God. I prayed that he would hold all of my essays, auditions, songs, and everything else in his hands. Jeremiah 29:11 kept ringing in my head. "For I KNOW the plans I have for you…"

I sang my heart out at every audition and by the grace of God, never hit a sour note, never got sick, and even in the midst of a snowstorm, made it to every single one of my auditions.

It wouldn't be for another two months before I knew the outcome of my auditions. And then it came… the final acceptance letter to Webster University in St. Louis, MO. The one I had been waiting for. I screamed, I cried, and I thanked JESUS that I was going to college.

And here I am… three months later and I just don't want to go. I have found incredible leaders, inspiring pastors, a church I LOVE serving in, and made friends that have become more family than anything. I am happier than I have ever been, and so content where I am. But we all know that doesn't last very long…

In trusting God, he has blessed me more than I could ever know… but now it's time for a new adventure. It's time to go through the flames again and let God use me in a whole new way. Going to a non- christian college will be a new challenge I have never faced. Growing up as a homeschooler, I have always been surrounded by christians and other people who shared the same values. But once again, I turn to God's word and listen to his promise of having a plan for me.

The moral of this incredibly long story… that God BLESSES THOSE who trust him with everything. I didn't even know if I'd get ACCEPTED to any colleges, but I had to let God fully take hold of the wheel and let him do his magic. I am a witness to his amazing love, and his miraculous work on his people. Don't get me wrong, I still have issues letting go and letting God take hold of my life, trust me… I don't have it completely down yet. But I can tell you… when you DO trust God, AMAZING things can happen.

It breaks my heart to think of what I'll be leaving behind when I leave, but God has already proven to me how he blesses those who trust in Him, so I am.

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take."

Proverbs 3:5