word of GOD speak

I have found that one of the best places to spend time with God is in the car. Weird, I know, but it's one of the few places that I'm allowed to really be alone and listen to God. Today, while on my way home from Belmont, I was listening to the radio and the song "Word of God Speak" came on. I blasted the song and listened to the lyrics match exactly to the tune of my heart...

I'm finding myself in the midst of You

Beyond the music, beyond the noise

All that I need is to be with You

And in the quiet hear Your voice

Word of God speak

Would You pour down like rain?

Washing my eyes to see

Your majesty

To be still and know

That You're in this place

Please let me stay and rest

In Your holiness

Word of God speak

"Please let me stay and rest in your holiness." That is the cry of my heart. I literally suck at asking for things-- especially help. And especially from God. I guess I've always thought of myself as a really strong person, but I can only do so much. All this STUFF that I do, singing, acting, shows, plays, piano, school, swimming, work...etc. I was bound to hit a wall soon, and that day was today. My body, emotions, and mind ache so much with the toll I have put on them. God constantly reminds me to be still, but I always manage to ignore Him and push on with what little strength I have left. I am defiant of God, and I know it breaks His heart every time I run from His load-bearing arms. What I need to realize is that I can't do it by myself, no matter how strong I think I am. He is the Mighty God and no strength could be greater!

"...to be still and know that your in this place

please let me stay and rest

in your holiness

word of GOD SPEAK."